The Duc Pond

I really hate my life sometimes. For months now all I’ve wanted is a weekend of isolation. I thought I could get some of that this weekend (at least for a tiny bit) but apparently we’re going to Virginia to see my aunt and the opening of a new Buddhist temple. I wouldn’t have a problem with this normally, but I’ve been desperate for some time to flop around and do nothing (also, I’m afraid of dying on the trip, but that’s another matter). I don’t want to see anyone, talk to anyone, do anything or even think about anything for at least a day. Everything, even Zelda (put in 2 hours today!), feels like an obligation. I want to relax! Or I want to know what boredom feels like. That’s not to say I hate people. I just need a shot of loneliness and boredom. Just one weekend. It has to be a weekend. During work I need human contact to get me through the day (hence AIM) and afterwards my day is shot anyway so I feel like I can’t effectively do nothing. This probably sounds weird.

Also, tomorrow is voting day for school board elections and whether or not we should authorize nearly $30 million to be raised through taxation. I probably shouldn’t be voting seeing as how I don’t pay property taxes, but if I can get up in time, I will! And I think I’ll vote yes! Education is good. Although $30 million is an enormous amount of money for what I think is a pretty small township (in terms of population).

And finally, I should note to my future self that I think I did well at work today. I stayed ’till 7 to fix up the GUI so it looked just right. JBuilder and Java are very cool, but Swing sure can be frustrating.